I'll be honest, I'm still not happy or at peace with this. Can I do this? Hell yeah. Do I want to? Absolutely not. For some reason, even after all this time, I just can't seem to master that whole acceptance thing. But I will keep trying. I am a work in progress. And that is exactly why I have taken this next step.
In the wise words of Rafiki from the Lion King: "It is time."
Here We Go
My first injection was not as bad as I had imagined. That's not to say it wasn't overwhelming, though. My head is still swimming with all the instructions: Find the injection site and don't forget to rotate the sites, remember all the steps to prepare the AutoEject, apply a warm compress for five minutes beforehand, apply ice afterward if I bleed or bruise, let the alcohol dry before adminstering the shot, remember to log where and when I gave myself the shots, find a safe place for meds and container for needle disposal, and on and on. By the time the nurse left my head hurt worse than my injection site. Luckily, I had Mark by my side helping me along. He really is my prince.
He always tells me to look at everything as a new adventure. Well, let the adventure begin.
In time I know everything I learned today will become second nature and at some point I will find peace with this journey. For now I'm taking it day by day.
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